So anyway, my sense now (since Covid went "long" in my brain, destroyed my personality, and left me to form a new one, from perspective of which I realized the old one had been well-"masked" autistic) is that autism is a matter of the personality constructing itself such that it has no role for pre-rational, pre-human "animal instinct", and thus must do everything (including further self-construction) by conscious logic alone

(Like, I don't know how social species without language would organize themselves if they couldn't parse each others' feelings directly, and we come from a long line of such species)