Ah, okay, now I'm experiencing some delirium, and not only have I continued to misplace things, but I've realized from the count of Badger's cat food not lining up (I give him 2/3 of a can for each meal, rotating between 4 flavors every 3 meals, so 2 cans, so I should never have an odd amount of one flavor unless I have a 1/3 full one of that flavor in the fridge, but now I do) I've been screwing that up somehow; I did that sometimes back in the depths of mental stuff. Also I think I might be back to a limit on how many steps ahead (and how many substeps per step) I can think
Also I might be like 1/2 to 1 scoops of creatine into energy deficit but I'm gonna let it ride to see if I can get the undertow effect
Oh, and judging from how my mind derails into sex every 15 seconds, the hypersexuality is back too.
…okay update: besides emos my taste in men includes femboys. You will also recall that I’m a top, switchy I guess, but “taking it up the ass” is something I mostly associate with being pegged, by women.
I have as much fucked up shit – well, I don’t know if “fucked up” is even right, it’s not really a problem, but weirdly constructed shit – around gender and sexuality as you might expect from someone who (gynophilically, autistically?) identified as a girl in adolescence, gave it up, and then in adulthood became bisexual, had his whole personality wiped, and then had to construct a new one while delirious under the effects of a brain disease, while physically isolated but on [tumblr] as his only point of contact with the world.