I’m not accomplishing anything, which I didn’t expect to while this anxiety return mania plays out, but the non-disorder anxiety at least allowed me to take the initiative to make some arrangements to clear a week or two
It is funny though, I’m just not getting the restless drive to go accomplish action items so I just sit in my chair by the window, but then thinking about the fact that I’m not even though nothing’s stopping me and I could just has me in a loop thinking poorly of myself for not getting anything done even though I specifically blocked off the time to do nothing.
Got a new mattock with a longer composite handle and boy does it chop what remains of that downhill bamboo better than that old wood-handled cultivator mattock (whose handle dried and split), but I’ve still got some pectoral muscle tweaks from all that mulch pitching to rest off before I swing it more.
Sure enough, with the anxiety at normal I have an assessment of neighborhood future hitting between the golden glory I do at zero anxiety and the miserable outcomes with the anxiety disorder, that the neighborhood continues to develop but none of it is particularly for me and when I examine that – “Why are you scoffing at this restaurant for 35-year-old yuppies? You’re 45 and rich. What do you want? What do you want?” dont really have a sense of what would be, at least I have a house I can walk to a few places to eat from that’s appreciated well – in a way swamped by everything else I inherit – but honestly if that’s my criteria I should maybe go somewhere with taller buildings
Yeah, the different timing and motivation with which I get up, go out and do yard work, eat, go to bed, the way even when out I’m in a less linear bang-things-out-1-2-3 mode… that’s def. shifted back in the direction of the old personality.
Honestly can’t really tell if what I had attributed to borderline autism going away has been affected, that difference mostly shows up in social situations and I just don’t feel that outgoing rn.
You do know that the majority of teachers' unions strictly don't protect people (even members) who commit crimes against children right? And that people who are credibly accused of such a thing are rejected by unions, right? Like you know that, surely. And that the vast majority of public school teachers, especially in the US, do what they do only after years of training, are grossly underpaid, and only stay in the profession out of a genuine desire to Fucking Help Kids. You know this, right? Or are you just fucking stupid
Nah, actually as the son of a school district solicitor growing up I’m gonna insist that I had a far closer-up view on public school labor relations than you’re evincing here – like, the silly thing I’m casting “them” as doing, not realizing the conflict here? You’re doing it!
Like “ooh, they don’t protect them from the police” meh – union lawyers can totally advise them on best practices re: the police, but like, they absolutely protect them from workplace investigation and discipline, which is where the police would refer “OOOH, I heard Vicky is fucking Mr. Miller!” anyway – they might pursue further if they’re brought evidence a prosecutor could use, but why would they investigate to generate it? Police obviously do not have an interest in undermining the protections unionized public workers have won at the bargaining table, duh.
i’m the guy who writes the books that the protagonist in supernatural horror movies frantically reads somewhere in act ii. job’s pretty easy. lot of “legends of vampires have recurred all throughout human history” and “demonologists agree that the quickest way to un-summon a demon is to trap it in a cursed object”. no citations of course; they don’t pay me citation money. i had to learn html back in the early aughts when everyone started seeking their supernatural info on websites they found via top search engines like FINDLER and WEBSIGHT but that’s died down now which is great because i didn’t have it in me to pick up css. currently working on a new book about horses that are evil. it’s called HORSES THAT ARE EVIL in all caps so the protagonist can find it quickly to yank off the library shelf. it will be published 35 years ago.
If a male author writes online femdom porn under a female pen name and a reader offers to do free proofreading because they have a service kink and it turns them on to be useful to a woman in this way does the author have an obligation to turn them down because they wouldn't have made the offer if aware of all the facts?
Always funny to see someone casting shade on “defending pedophiles” turn around and praise teachers’ unions.
I bet they still think the majority of institutional bureaucratic apparatus in America dedicated to protecting against punishment and advancing the interests of men who had sex with underage children is Catholic!
There are about 37,000 priests and 750,000 male public school teachers in America (and as Barstool reminds, don’t count the female ones out!)
